Sunday, August 22, 2004

he just got home from the hospital last nite. a heart attack, my brother said. geez..

at least, I am on my one week trial.
and at least, I only spend $80 per week for my rent now

good that i don't need to drive all the way from geelong no more

my geelong

i'll be back soon.
i promise.

but melbourne is a nice place. so i'll get through. I should.

and by the way..


Posted by cabina. @ 6:05 PM :: (1) comments

Thursday, August 12, 2004


feeling totally dumbfounded at the moment.



I am in a position where I need to decide which phone number should I give to more than 100 companies on THE Career Expo at 10 AM, which is only 2 hours away.

That cheeky bastard Vodafone, and the expensive, useless Optus


all these problems..

Posted by cabina. @ 7:25 AM :: (0) comments

Monday, August 09, 2004

saya prihatin.

bukan prihatin untuk mereka yg kekurangan makanan. tapi untuk mereka yang engga bisa mengerti. dan munkin aja, saya termasuk dalam kelompok yang tidak bisa mengerti itu. karena untuk mengerti, diperlukan satu proses. proses yang seseorang hrs lalui, mau tidak mau. setelah proses itu, barulah orang itu mengerti. tapi proses itu bukan untuk semua manusia. hanya mereka2 yang terpilih saja yang bisa tahu.

dan kalau saya diberikan kepercayaan untuk memilih; menjadi yang mengerti atau yang tidak mengerti. saya tidak akan tahu hrs memilih yg mana. karena saya ingin mengerti, tapi tidak mau mengalami. satu kelakuan yg egois, memang. tapi bukankah kita semua begitu?

Posted by cabina. @ 8:12 PM :: (0) comments

Sunday, August 08, 2004

a beautiful mystery

for someone who is really special

Someone who loves beatles so much
Someone who has no prejudice

You dont have to say sorry, do you know that love?
because you are actually special.

Im so sorry for my self pity

so sorry..

and at one time, I heard you sang one of the Smashmouth's song;
I'm a Believer

I love that song too :)

Posted by cabina. @ 7:39 PM :: (1) comments

Saturday, August 07, 2004

It was funny last nite.
For the first time, I enjoyed being graduated from Uni.

After work Tom asked me and Kimmy,

"are you up for pool, girls?"

Kimmy, who I envy so much cos she's doing Nursing, fastly replied before I got the chance, "cool, winna do you have uni tomorr.... SHIT!!"

I sipped my Archer and grinned.

I think it was the widest smile I had for the last couple of weeks.

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Monday, August 02, 2004

all at sea

Im all at sea
Where no one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts
Sailing far away

So, I've graduated now. I still remember those days, when I gave up CSI just to finish that damn PovRay or that stupid Test Cases. And I still remember exactly how hard it feels to keep my eyes open after two days of full electromagnetic radiation

I'd worked my a** off to get that 92 written on my transcript.
"No pain, No gain" people say.

Im all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
I dont speak to nobody
I gave away my phone

But to finish a double degree is not good enough for him, I suppose. It's just the beginning, he said.

you dont need it every day
But sometimes dont you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
And we will spend it all at sea

and Im tired. Sure enough Im tired of trying. Hang on when this world is spinning.

and yea.. all at sea..

Posted by cabina. @ 5:24 PM :: (1) comments