Saturday, December 24, 2005

ih sebel

ada lagi yg mau naik pesawat
naik kreta,


habis itu.. rebutan mobil yg ada mp3 player nya

pusing ah..

cuma kan memang bgitu. karena we don't always get what we want.
makanya kan dr kecil uda diajarin bwat kompromi kann?
untung diajarin, coba kl engga.
pasti pusing

cuma ini kan liburan
jd ga bole pusing dong awh

kl kata wenny, honeymoon kecil2an hahaha

ya sudah lha ya

kita burn cd2 aja yuk
biar engga pusing
oke oke? ;)

Posted by cabina. @ 4:29 PM

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

2 1/2 days to christmas holiday

you see..

these days are those times of the year that you would spend days, thinking.
you look around.
you see the you that you love,
the surroundings and the past who had made the you that you love now

you'd cry at times,
and you'd be proud many a time as well.
for what you've done, achieved, failed, survived, and presevered.

there are always those who'd made you insane
who'd made you lost your sense
who'd made you wonder, maybe, for the rest of your life
"what the hell is wrong with you?!"
cause you know bad things may happen at times of comfort

but there are always those who'd made you laugh,
who made you think that you can move on no matter what happened.
those people who are there to catch you when you fall,
and even jump and fall with you just for the fun of it.
any other way, you know you love them dearly.
you hold them tight to your heart
and you would never let them go
not even once.

as for me,
my company had callously forced us to take annual leave between christmas break collectively
so i'm packing my baggage now.
planned to go to Gold Coast with him and a few friends of mine
six of us, on a road trip.
another 1800kms adventure =)

merry christmas and happy new year everyone..!!


when i asked a friend of mine at work on how to say 'all staff should take annual leave' in a proper english word, he told me that i should say 'taking an orgy of annual leave'.

for someone whose english is limited and being in a team where the team members are all pervert except me and him (i hope ;p), i had a feeling the word 'orgy' must've got something to do with sex.

so i didnt use it.

later today, i found out that the word 'orgy' DOES have something to do with sex. go figure.

Posted by cabina. @ 6:06 PM

Friday, December 16, 2005

I remember someone old once said to me:
"Lies will lock you up with truth the only key."

But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.

So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.

I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down.

"Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you

And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go

I can't let go.."

Posted by cabina. @ 8:33 PM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

ada yg bilang katanya blog ini tuh ekspresinya engga pernah langsung. slalu yg orang hrs mikir dulu, maksud nya apa.
bukan karena apa2
tapi karena saya sendiri engga tau gimana caranya mengekspresikan semua yg ada di dalam kepala saya dengan kata2.
biasanya... saya menghabiskan waktu berjam2 mikirin sesuatu yg engga penting
dan selalu, semua pikiran2 saya itu rasanya mau dimasukin kedalam blog ini
tapi setiap mulai ngetik, jadi bingung
mau toreh yg mana
yg ini, yg anu, yg tadi malem dipikirin, atau yg tadi siang wkt di kantor?


God Bless those people who could write, karena kegiatan rutin saya di pagi hari tiap datang ke meja kerja saya adalah blogrolling. cuma kalau saya blogrolling nya agak2 lain; karena ga smua yg saya datengin blognya saya kenal. dan saya cuma penonton passive. kalau saya ga kenal, saya engga kasi komen apa2.

kronologi nya kira2 seperti ini;

dateng kantor
sapa semua orang, krn biasanya saya dateng suka telat 5-10 menit
nyalain pc
taro tas,
ke dapur bikin teh
ke pc, buka blog orang2
blog pertama, si babe
ke dua, nana
ke tiga, rhea
ke empat, jas
trus ada manda,
om kere kemplu,
terakhir ka.

hehehehhee kapan kerjanya ya?

apalagi kl lg ada sesuatu yg memberatkan pikiran. pasti langsung browsing2. berusaha untuk cari tulisan yg sekiranya bisa meringankan pikiran.
tulisan2 yg bisa memberikan inspirasi, atau nasihat walaupun dengan tidak langsung..
cuma yah.. peace of mind is a state in which you have accepted the worst
jadi hrsnya sih, santai aja =)
ga perlu sibuk kesana kemari cari ketenangan
ketenangan itu datengnya dari diri kita sendiri kok
kl kata bbrp orang yg saya kenal sih, "it's all in your head, mate.."

Posted by cabina. @ 12:02 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

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Posted by cabina. @ 9:57 PM

Friday, December 09, 2005

sometimes i hate being a "junior", "beginner", "starter", "learner" whatever..
people looked down at me as if im the stupidest person they've known for the whole of their life

so what about..
instead of YOU shaking your head and giving me that 'oh-so-gay' cynical smile of yours
why dont you just mind your own stuff

i can manage my own work.
without your help, of course


Posted by cabina. @ 12:18 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

Dear God,

Im having issues with myself rite now.

How is it that I cant cope with everything that happened lately.

There is no loneliest feeling in the world than losin a best friend. There’s nothing is as heartbreaking as hearing your own family saying wrong things about you. and there's nothing is as confusing as being placed in a situation where you need to choose; to compromise, or to do whatever you think you need to do and don't think too much of how the person feels about your action.

it's hard being a melancholy, because you see.. you tend think over everything again and again and again until your head aches so bad you cant even concentrate when you were talkin to someone else.

but a home is a place where you need to be comfortable in..


guide me through this, dear God..
I'm nothing without your guidance..

Posted by cabina. @ 12:26 PM